It's Strange How....

You find yourself feeling sorry for newly bought items, never to be used again
You reach for your phone to text a certain someone, knowing they can't answer anymore
You put on his clothes just to remember what it was like
You feel the need to protect other people when you inform them and see their visible discomfort, so...
You find yourself laughing when you tell people about it. It doesn't make sense! It's an awkward, uncomfortable half smile, half 'laugh' as you say 'what can you do' in an effort to ease the tension
You know logically he's not coming back and yet you are constantly surprised that this thing is not over yet. That he hasn't come back yet.
It's rarely the BIG things that make you cry.
You feel like you can't get rid of certain things, ya know, just in case
Your brain becomes like a sieve, making it nearly impossible to remember anything
You no longer remember how to make small talk
Hugs become awkward - physical contact feels strange and unfamilar
People look at you differently
Your body changes - you lose weight, gain weight, lose muscle, lose calluses, muscles ache, headaches become routine
You lose track of time regularly
Time moves sooooooo slowly
You move sooo slowly
You're tired all the time, but seem to avoid going to bed at all costs
You sleep, but rarely soundly
You lie in, a lot
You lie - to avoid telling the truth
You find the simplest of decisions REALLY difficult - like what to eat, what to buy, where to go, who to call, what to do
Seriously, this THING is strange!